Mildred Davis. I knew her well. She knew me well. She came to the library often enough then you can tell. She was a beautiful woman, but to some, not the prettiest. But, to me, she had a heart of gold. She always had this way of talking to people that made them feel better about themselves. Let me tell you about one instance.
It was about 1924. She had retired from films, as far as I know. She came alone. I was surprised to see her. She came up to me. She took one look at me and said :
“Ohh my goodness, what is wrong?” I assured her that nothing was wrong. I lied. Everything was wrong.
“Mr. Mert, something is wrong, and I shall know why?” I didn’t say anything.
“Mert, have you ever had problems with marriage or life?” She asked. I was not married at the time. I said ‘no’ to the marriage part, but ‘yes’ to the life part.
“I am not sure what to do about Harold? He persuaded me to retire and I have my whole life ahead of me,” She said. I stood up (I was sitting down behind the reference desk) and I took her hand.
“Mildred, come with me,” I said. I lead her to a table. I told her to sit. She sat. She looked like she was about to cry. I took her hand in mine.
“Your heart is too full to worry,” I said.
She looked up at me.
Then, she said something I’ll never forget.
“You will be loved by thousands. You are rare, Mr. Mert. You will take women who are tattered and torn and put them back together.” She then hugged me. Hugging Mildred Davis was like hugging a warm blanket. She was so warm. If you’ve ever seen a picture or motion picture now-a-days, you will see when something special hugs another, you get that ‘spark’ or that ‘special effect’. I felt like her heart was melting into mine. It was a long and beautiful hug. She taught me to ‘take someone as they are’. She also taught me that the damaged people, are the kindest, and believe me, you couldn’t see it, but she was damaged. It took me to fix her”
~May.1.1981
11.27.2012
Regarding Mildred
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11.26.2012
We Are the Resistance
Dearest Librarian:
We know that you have been hurt. We cannot accept that pain you take. So, we have something to say.
Don’t stop believing. Don’t stop dreaming. This is the fight for innocence.
Our hearts will love again.
Don’t let go, don’t let go.
We ARE THE RESISTANCE.
These women will not tolerate this treatment of you.
WE ARE THE RESISTANCE.
Don’t stop believing, don’t you stop dreaming.
This is the fight for innocence.
Don’t stop believing. Don’t stop dreaming. This is the fight for innocence.
Our hearts will love again.
Don’t let go, don’t let go.
We ARE THE RESISTANCE.
We will be untied…
We will won’t stop believing, or breathing.
This is the fight of innocence.
Don’t let go, don’t let go.
WE ARE THE RESISTANCE.
Don’t let go of your innocence.
Don’t stop believing. Don’t stop dreaming. This is the fight for innocence.
Our hearts will love again.
Don’t let go, don’t let go.
We ARE THE RESISTANCE.
DON’T LET GO.
~Your visitors at the library.
We know that you have been hurt. We cannot accept that pain you take. So, we have something to say.
Don’t stop believing. Don’t stop dreaming. This is the fight for innocence.
Our hearts will love again.
Don’t let go, don’t let go.
We ARE THE RESISTANCE.
These women will not tolerate this treatment of you.
WE ARE THE RESISTANCE.
Don’t stop believing, don’t you stop dreaming.
This is the fight for innocence.
Don’t stop believing. Don’t stop dreaming. This is the fight for innocence.
Our hearts will love again.
Don’t let go, don’t let go.
We ARE THE RESISTANCE.
We will be untied…
We will won’t stop believing, or breathing.
This is the fight of innocence.
Don’t let go, don’t let go.
WE ARE THE RESISTANCE.
Don’t let go of your innocence.
Don’t stop believing. Don’t stop dreaming. This is the fight for innocence.
Our hearts will love again.
Don’t let go, don’t let go.
We ARE THE RESISTANCE.
DON’T LET GO.
~Your visitors at the library.
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11.25.2012
An Adventure with Lillian Gish and Rita Hayworth
Rita went up to Lillian’s apartment. Lillian was happy to see Rita. “Rita, my dear friend! What can I do for you?” “Lillian, there is a place that we need to see!” Rita stated. “What kind of place? Where is it? How can we get there?” Rita explained that she found a ‘reserve’ (if you will) and that they needed to see it. Lillian asked how they would get there. “We shall walk,” stated Rita. Lillian agreed. She and Rita walked. Thankfully, Rita knew the way. But, their journey wasn’t without struggle. When they were walking along the gravel road, there appeared two men. Rita didn’t like the looks of these two gentlemen. Thankfully, they both dressed accordingly. Rita grabbed Lillian’s arm. “Lillian, whatever happens now, do as I say,” Rita stated. Lillian didn’t say a word and nodded her head. Rita then lead Lillian slowly ahead. The two men looked at Lillian. This look, I will regret to say, wasn’t pleasant. Then, the men started walking towards them. Rita pushed Lillian and told her to RUN!. Lillian ran through a forest . She was only thinking of one thing: Which way to go or What about Rita? She didn’t look behind her. She kept running forward then, she tripped and fell. One of the men grabbed her and pulled her up. “Where you going?” he snarled. Lillian was good at smacking people and she hit the man really hard. He released her and she continued to run. Then, she came to a cliff. But, her feet wouldn’t stop fast enough, and she fell. But, while she was falling, a hand grabbed hers. It was Rita. “You didn’t think I’d let Lillian Gish die, did you?” Rita pulled her up and hugged her. Lillian was in tears. “What about the men?” “A herd of buffalo scared them off,” Rita said. Lillian dried her eyes. “Now, are you ready to see the place I found?” Rita said. After Lillian dried her eyes, she nodded. The two of them walked in fields of flowers and then they saw wild horses running around. Then, finally the reached the “reserve”. They saw buffalo galore. “Rita, thank you for saving my life,” Lillian said. “That’s what friends are for right?” Rita said. The two of them walked among the buffalo. The buffalo were friendly. They would let Rita and Lillian pet them. Lillian and Rita finally enjoyed themselves. “Can’t wait to tell Dorothy about this!” Lillian said. “Lillian, I’ll always keep you safe,” Rita stated. Lillian agreed she’d do the same . The two looked out into the vast valley.
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11.20.2012
Our Revolution
via Alice Bag's Violence Girl blog
"It’s all about how you have to look a certain way or else you’re worthless. You know when you look in the mirror, and you think, ‘Ugh, I’m so fat, I’m so old, I’m so ugly’, don’t you know that’s not your authentic self, but that is billions upon billions of dollars of advertising, magazines, movies, billboards, all geared to make you feel shitty about yourself so that you will take your hard-earned money and spend it on some turnaround cream that doesn’t turnaround shit.
"When you don’t have self-esteem, you will hesitate before you do anything in your life. You will hesitate to go for the job you really wanna go for. You will hesitate to ask for a raise. You will hesitate to report a rape. You will hesitate to defend yourself when you are discriminated against because of your race, your sexuality, your size, your gender. You will hesitate to vote. You will hesitate to dream.
For us to have self-esteem is truly an act of revolution. And our revolution is long-overdue."
-Margaret Cho
"It’s all about how you have to look a certain way or else you’re worthless. You know when you look in the mirror, and you think, ‘Ugh, I’m so fat, I’m so old, I’m so ugly’, don’t you know that’s not your authentic self, but that is billions upon billions of dollars of advertising, magazines, movies, billboards, all geared to make you feel shitty about yourself so that you will take your hard-earned money and spend it on some turnaround cream that doesn’t turnaround shit.
"When you don’t have self-esteem, you will hesitate before you do anything in your life. You will hesitate to go for the job you really wanna go for. You will hesitate to ask for a raise. You will hesitate to report a rape. You will hesitate to defend yourself when you are discriminated against because of your race, your sexuality, your size, your gender. You will hesitate to vote. You will hesitate to dream.
For us to have self-esteem is truly an act of revolution. And our revolution is long-overdue."
-Margaret Cho
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Lillian's Request
Dear Mert,
I hope I can call you that! I have included something for you in this letter. I have included a little photograph of me. I also want to let you know that I am coming to see you soon about my books! I have one more for you to hold on to, but Dorothy (my sister, whom you’ll notice, has a bit of resemblance to me) will have the book to give to you . I am not exactly sure when , but do look out for her! I need to thank you in advance for keeping the books for me! I do not know what it is about your library, but I feel that it is the safest place to keep the books. I have two. You may read them, for they are nothing personal. But, I fear the worst, dear Mert. I do. I had the worst dream. Do you mind If I tell it to you? It was years, years later and I saw these two men wanting my books! They destroyed the library and they hurt you, but you protected my books! Mert, with all due respect, please, keep the books safe for me, please! Thank You! I will see you soon!
Yours, Lillian Gish
I hope I can call you that! I have included something for you in this letter. I have included a little photograph of me. I also want to let you know that I am coming to see you soon about my books! I have one more for you to hold on to, but Dorothy (my sister, whom you’ll notice, has a bit of resemblance to me) will have the book to give to you . I am not exactly sure when , but do look out for her! I need to thank you in advance for keeping the books for me! I do not know what it is about your library, but I feel that it is the safest place to keep the books. I have two. You may read them, for they are nothing personal. But, I fear the worst, dear Mert. I do. I had the worst dream. Do you mind If I tell it to you? It was years, years later and I saw these two men wanting my books! They destroyed the library and they hurt you, but you protected my books! Mert, with all due respect, please, keep the books safe for me, please! Thank You! I will see you soon!
Yours, Lillian Gish
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11.19.2012
Dress No.14
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11.18.2012
Thanks from Lillian
November 22, 1921
Dear Mert,
Thank you for staying the night with me. It was so nice to have you there with me. I thank you for understanding my plight and wanting to help. Luckily, everything turned out alright (you know what I’m talking about, right? What I told you about?) I thank you also for taking me to the clinic, to see if I was alright with my ‘cold’. It was so kind of you to take me! Mert, you have been so kind to me and I don’t think I have had a good friend like you, other than my good friend Nell. I told you all about Nell and I’m so sorry if I bored you to death about her. But, I wanted to extend my thanks to you for being so generous in your generous offer, but luckily, I am going to be just fine. I haven’t told Dorothy yet about what went on, while I visited you, ohh, mother would just have a fit! You must be happy to know that your mother is not living in the States. Mother would have a fit about anything. She would definitely have a fit, if she knew that you and I were in the same room together ( I can’t say more, for I know she’ll ask me “Lillian Diana Gish, who are you writing to?”) . But, you know what I’m talking about. You seem very brilliant and I know that you are, so you can ‘figure it out’. I am to write you another letter, soon, but in this for this letter, I have included a lovely picture of me. I knew you would like that. Your letter that you sent me, was just overwhelming with kindness and gratitude. It almost got me in tears, but since Dorothy is around or I’m usually on rehearsing a scene, I kept it to myself. I loved every word, I hung on every word! I’m sorry this letter is brief, but I hope to hear from you soon! Also, I want to know more about your family. ‘Mertzal’, I want to know where your family would come up with a name like that? It’s so unusual , but if fits a lovely man, such as yourself!
Sincerely Yours, Lillian Gish
Dear Mert,
Thank you for staying the night with me. It was so nice to have you there with me. I thank you for understanding my plight and wanting to help. Luckily, everything turned out alright (you know what I’m talking about, right? What I told you about?) I thank you also for taking me to the clinic, to see if I was alright with my ‘cold’. It was so kind of you to take me! Mert, you have been so kind to me and I don’t think I have had a good friend like you, other than my good friend Nell. I told you all about Nell and I’m so sorry if I bored you to death about her. But, I wanted to extend my thanks to you for being so generous in your generous offer, but luckily, I am going to be just fine. I haven’t told Dorothy yet about what went on, while I visited you, ohh, mother would just have a fit! You must be happy to know that your mother is not living in the States. Mother would have a fit about anything. She would definitely have a fit, if she knew that you and I were in the same room together ( I can’t say more, for I know she’ll ask me “Lillian Diana Gish, who are you writing to?”) . But, you know what I’m talking about. You seem very brilliant and I know that you are, so you can ‘figure it out’. I am to write you another letter, soon, but in this for this letter, I have included a lovely picture of me. I knew you would like that. Your letter that you sent me, was just overwhelming with kindness and gratitude. It almost got me in tears, but since Dorothy is around or I’m usually on rehearsing a scene, I kept it to myself. I loved every word, I hung on every word! I’m sorry this letter is brief, but I hope to hear from you soon! Also, I want to know more about your family. ‘Mertzal’, I want to know where your family would come up with a name like that? It’s so unusual , but if fits a lovely man, such as yourself!
Sincerely Yours, Lillian Gish
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Shush
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11.17.2012
The Birth of "Girl Shy"
Mildred Davis and Harold Lloyd did come to the library. I remember them quite well. I was just sitting behind the reference desk and in walks the Lloyds. Mildred was beautiful, but in a different kind of way. Harold was holding her arm. Mr. Lloyd walked up to me and said hello. I said “Hello sir, how may I help you today?” He looked at my name tag, and then he looked again, like he knew the name somewhere.
“Mertzal!” He said.
“Yes, sir, that’s me,” I said.
“I’ve heard your name somewhere, I’m trying thing to think where I’ve heard it,” He said, thinking. I sat there, looking shy. I was a shy man. I know it may not seem like it, but I am.
“OH! I think I remember, have you heard of a woman named Jobyna Ralston?” He asked me. I nodded and said “Yes sir, I have.”
“She told me of a man named Mertzal, I think that might be you!” He said. I couldn’t lie. I nodded.
“It’s so great to meet you sir!” Harold said. I shook his hand.
“How can I help you both today?” I asked, nervous.
“Well, my wife and I were wondering if we could talk to you for a bit?” He asked. I nodded and lead them to a table. He talked me about a new idea for a picture, starring Jobyna. He wanted to know if I would recommend something to him. Well, I said “I’m not a picture expert, but I know there a lot of books you base something off of,” I said.
“Jobyna talks about a system you do with her hands, what’s that all about?” Harold asked. I remember Jobyna cabling me a few days before saying that she thought that Harold hated her, because he didn’t understand this system.
“It’s a long story , Mr. Lloyd and it’s really for her benefit,” I said, trying not to sound rude. Harold sounded like he was interested in Jobyna. He had Mildred. Jobyna was mine. My eyes let him know that, but I don’t think he got that.
“I want to know if I could tell you about a picture idea,” Harold said. He and Mildred took turns talking and there my friend, was the ‘birth’ of “Girl Shy”.
~1924.March.2.
“Mertzal!” He said.
“Yes, sir, that’s me,” I said.
“I’ve heard your name somewhere, I’m trying thing to think where I’ve heard it,” He said, thinking. I sat there, looking shy. I was a shy man. I know it may not seem like it, but I am.
“OH! I think I remember, have you heard of a woman named Jobyna Ralston?” He asked me. I nodded and said “Yes sir, I have.”
“She told me of a man named Mertzal, I think that might be you!” He said. I couldn’t lie. I nodded.
“It’s so great to meet you sir!” Harold said. I shook his hand.
“How can I help you both today?” I asked, nervous.
“Well, my wife and I were wondering if we could talk to you for a bit?” He asked. I nodded and lead them to a table. He talked me about a new idea for a picture, starring Jobyna. He wanted to know if I would recommend something to him. Well, I said “I’m not a picture expert, but I know there a lot of books you base something off of,” I said.
“Jobyna talks about a system you do with her hands, what’s that all about?” Harold asked. I remember Jobyna cabling me a few days before saying that she thought that Harold hated her, because he didn’t understand this system.
“It’s a long story , Mr. Lloyd and it’s really for her benefit,” I said, trying not to sound rude. Harold sounded like he was interested in Jobyna. He had Mildred. Jobyna was mine. My eyes let him know that, but I don’t think he got that.
“I want to know if I could tell you about a picture idea,” Harold said. He and Mildred took turns talking and there my friend, was the ‘birth’ of “Girl Shy”.
~1924.March.2.
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A Letter from Jobyna
June.12.1924
Dear Mertzal,
I finally have completed that book you sent me. What a lovely story! I couldn’t put it down. I have tried to read out loud, but sometimes, the words just don’t come out right. I didn’t know that you had brothers! That must have been lovely! Can you please give me a phonetic way of how to say your last name? I know how to spell it just fine, just saying it, is a little bit hard! I’ve been alright, thank you for asking! I hope you are doing well! Oh! I spoke to Ms. Lillian Gish today. She knows you too!! Such a small world it is! I am planning on seeing you soon! I want to read another book to you. I think I’m getting better (with my mouth, well, you have the other name for it, but I don’t like saying it). But, I am doing well in the pictures. I’m working in another picture with Harold Lloyd. I wrote you about him last week! I’m starting a picture called “Girl Shy”. It should be a lot of fun! Ohh Mertzal! I get to wear such nice clothes for this picture and I get to have a little puppy dog with me! But, can I tell you a secret? Harold has to stutter and it sort of reminds me of what I have , sort of .. does that make sense. But, I will ‘play it safe’, if that makes sense to you at all. So, I heard someone speaking Yiddish today and I thought of you! You speak it fully or ‘fluently’ right? I thought you did! I cannot wait to see you again! I am so sorry this letter is brief, but here is a little portrait of me. I think you’ll like it. I think it. I like the fence, I think you would too! By the way, when I come back to see you, can you show me all of the library, I don’t think I’ve seen it all yet! I would love to see it all!! Ohh! Before I forget, when I get there, Ms. Gish had asked me to check on her books for her. She said that she had two books that you are keeping for her, right? That’s what she told me. I wish I had a book for you to keep! Oh! But, I don’t understand what she needs the books there for?
Well, lovely, I must be off now! I shall see you soon, alright!
Sincerely,
Jobyna Ralston
Dear Mertzal,
I finally have completed that book you sent me. What a lovely story! I couldn’t put it down. I have tried to read out loud, but sometimes, the words just don’t come out right. I didn’t know that you had brothers! That must have been lovely! Can you please give me a phonetic way of how to say your last name? I know how to spell it just fine, just saying it, is a little bit hard! I’ve been alright, thank you for asking! I hope you are doing well! Oh! I spoke to Ms. Lillian Gish today. She knows you too!! Such a small world it is! I am planning on seeing you soon! I want to read another book to you. I think I’m getting better (with my mouth, well, you have the other name for it, but I don’t like saying it). But, I am doing well in the pictures. I’m working in another picture with Harold Lloyd. I wrote you about him last week! I’m starting a picture called “Girl Shy”. It should be a lot of fun! Ohh Mertzal! I get to wear such nice clothes for this picture and I get to have a little puppy dog with me! But, can I tell you a secret? Harold has to stutter and it sort of reminds me of what I have , sort of .. does that make sense. But, I will ‘play it safe’, if that makes sense to you at all. So, I heard someone speaking Yiddish today and I thought of you! You speak it fully or ‘fluently’ right? I thought you did! I cannot wait to see you again! I am so sorry this letter is brief, but here is a little portrait of me. I think you’ll like it. I think it. I like the fence, I think you would too! By the way, when I come back to see you, can you show me all of the library, I don’t think I’ve seen it all yet! I would love to see it all!! Ohh! Before I forget, when I get there, Ms. Gish had asked me to check on her books for her. She said that she had two books that you are keeping for her, right? That’s what she told me. I wish I had a book for you to keep! Oh! But, I don’t understand what she needs the books there for?
Well, lovely, I must be off now! I shall see you soon, alright!
Sincerely,
Jobyna Ralston
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